i still believe

今天 ==
都不董要说什么才好~

skipppppppp

刚才跟朋友skype ,
在那边教他setting东西
然后，她找我了~~

哎呀~~直接说重点啦.....
她忽然给我看了一小段的字
是来自,erm...我该怎么说呢
erm...xdo de 老公吧~~
我一直以来都很担心这件事..
自从我知道她跟那个xdo的老公
有关系之后，我就很伤心
我问了她很多次，
但最后，她还是选择了我。。。
那~又怎样呢？？？
现在他都不想谈恋爱了
而让我感到开心的就是
那个light也就是她的xdo 老公
已经跟她分了~

希望在未来她还是会选择我
而不是那个 light ><
好啦好啦~~~~
我知道我不应该提到relation
我也知道你为了要专心在学业
所以暂时放下了爱情~
可是~~真的希望你心里永远只有我
因为！！我的心里，只有美君（你）
永远都没有人能取代你！


ok larh...
write until here only
buaii ~~~

考试~

今天没什么特别的事情分享..
哈哈~所以就短而已咯..

咳~~总是感觉日子过得很快..
明天又要考试..
就这样..周末就过去了..

哦~对了....明天就是form 3的考试~

希望她能进她的能力,

如果你在读着我的blog的话，
那就在这里给你一些鼓励，
~加油！！加油！！
别忘了你答应过我的事情哦 =)

而我呢，要面对的还是考试~~~x)
她是PMR,我是SPM~
对双方来说，都是非常的重要..
所以才暂时把爱情放下..
专心的，把时间都放在学业^^
我知道，有些朋友以为我们已经分手了~~
其实,不算是分手啦~
只是，暂时不谈恋爱而已=)
我相信我们的决定是对的~
因为读书真的很重要

读完书了，才继续拍拖也不迟呀~
她答应不离开对方，
我相信她一定会做得到^^
就像我一样~~=]

好啦好啦~~
就写到这里咯~~
buaii buaii``

another day~

Today whole day at home..
doing nothing...
want sleep but very hot..==
haixx..now punya whether change jor >

SKIPPPPPPPPPP`

today punya Earth hour really sucks!
at my area lar, no ppl turn off lights de = =
haha..including me also
watever lar..this year the event not successful enough
i got go survey, and 99.8% dint turn off light

other place i still dont know,
waiting for friend's to give me the report
haha...

me like "bat gong" hor xP?
lalalala~~ that's me lurhh

Duno want write what jor
write until here x)
buaii buaiii~~~~ =]]

miss you so much

today nothing special happen
still the same..
everyday exam exammm onlyy ==
today is science...><
walao..paper 2 so damnn hard lurhh
haha..i slept 1 hours before doing it
hahaha....sot kia...lalalala xP

SKIPPPPP ~`

This whole week damn sienx nurhhh
and very easy to get tired...
and now gt 1 ppl dint talk to me jor
she knows who gua x)
abit bu xi guan jorrr =x

lala XD so 2molo is EARTH HOUR
turn off lights from 8.30-9.30pm
save energy save the WORLD
ushhh ushhhh~~~ XP

okayyy larhh..
write until here nia =]
buaii buaiii ~~~ xD


MISS YOU ><

are u tired of me??

Today todayyy~~~~~ T^T
math exam.... shit lurhhhh~~~
i have no comfident on math at all..
and i lost all my concentration on studies
deng ~~~!


And yesterday she told me
" i still lurb eu~ dun sad"
that time i reli so happy
at last, she say like that
then my mood is back

until when i saw her facebook profile
she changed her relationship status
no more me, but her laopo
LOL! zhadao lurhh~~
den..nvm lurhh~
but when i see her another profile
her status , i'm tired of it ~~
i think she is saying about me
when i see the comment there..
gt ppl ask her, tired of?
den she said, relation lurhhh
this 1 sure is me liao,
relation with me very tired
i guesss~~~
then now my mood is bad again
or maybe i think too much
or i guess wrong???

haix...everyday thinking of her
i also duno got what use
i think her but she know or not
i just like a person that become so weak
just becox of relation..
ishhh... buaii buaii ~
write until here

1 month ~~

Today damn tired i dont know why ==
wake up jor but still feel so sleepy
then go school, fall asleep in dewan ><
den today is English de exam..
lol..paper 2 still okay
paper 1...walao /faint

i spend about 1 hour just to think about the title
but at last...i finish it ><
den after that... go eat kfc with classmates ~~
laughh laughh happy happy...
then go fren house to repair his pc
then .....deng...cd problem><
tmr still nid go again........

actually lar..dun see me like happy happy
but actually im not happy at all...
always thinking about her....
lol...many fren say...aiya..give up lar..
she dun want you jor..wat for u want so stupid ???
but i keep telling them
I BELIEVE SHE STILL LOVE ME GEH!!!
SHUT ALL UR MOUTH!!!!

then argue argueeeee....

haix....now tired jor
that's all

buaii buaii

and today can say is 1 month jor..
if me and her dint break><
den 1 month liao...
haix...sobbss

i should be waiting

this few days many of my clasmate started to ask me
about me and her,but i reli dun know what should i answer them
but they already know about it, and then..........

some say, dai sei larhh...good larrr...
some say, why har, no until 1 month already break, u so pity lar !
some say , haiz...u reli hopeless lar..you ~~ haizzzz ~`

why cant even a person understand my feeling jek ==

i reli so hopeless meh??
actually all the time, i tell myself...
she dint leave me at all, we are still tgt de =)

is my thinking real? maybe yes or its yes

and i believe she still loves me de =]
that's my feeling, i got the feeling


just now suddenly in skype
she called me a word that i dint heard quiet sometime liao
lalala 老公公~ this word is wat she might call me

what's the meaning? she stil dint break with me or??
wat wat???

that time i really so happy,
i tot she really want tell me something
but she din't ,
actually in my heart, she never break with me b4
i never even change my facebook relation status
i really believe she's mine, she's still with me


skipppppp

today exam, BM = =
while exam i keep on missing her
cant stop thinking of her every second

actually tell you all something lar
me hor, last time my ex- break with me that time
i will never be like that de, maybe sad 1-2 days
then i will be back to normal jor de
but this time different,
maybe i really too loves her le
so will like that, but she's really my only girl
in my heart , she's the one..she's always the one.


I still love you, i never give up at all.
i hope you dint give up too.
come back to me bah,
i really miss you so much
my life is so empty and lonely without you
everyday only miss you,but cant
even call you what i usually call
and i cant even sms and talk to you

( NO ONE WILL EVER REPLACE YOU IN MY HEART)
the end, bye ~~i missed you misss youu ><

im hurt ==

my mind was so luan~~
should i just keep on like this or to give up ><
i reli duno what i should do..

me and her too many things cant forget liao
all those memories are so hard to forget
and today i went to leisure mall with my fren
and when i pass by those places
and those memories was inside my mind..><


and suddenly i sang this song..
this song suits my mood right now

and this song will tell you how's my MOOD

ok that's all

buaii `~~

im so hurt

this post is actually yesterday i should write de..
but today only write... ==

yesterday actually i dont wish to break with her
but she think jor so long, her final answer also " break"
so, all i can do is.. accept and keep my sadness in my heart.
after she said want break, my heart was totally so hurt
and i also fainted that time..
eventhough we together almost 1 month,
but i felt like together 1 year jor..
the feeling is totally different, its really so deep in heart
the hurt is also deep.. until i cant believe it


Actually i still dun know what the real reason..
she kept saying want focus study..
and she now very easy like other boy..
so..is it the real reason of leaving me?

The one who knows the answer is only HER.

All i can say is, my life is now very empty..
and why must she choose this day
why cant wait until i finish exam only break
or maybe other day,
this totally makes me lost my mood..
i cant even concentrate on study
or maybe exam also will be affected.
cham lurhh~~~~~~><


To You:

I hope the hope will become reality,
it's depends on me and you~
waiting for you~


Ok, enough already..
dun know what to write anymore
buaii buaiii~~
wont on9 for awhile i guess~


23 February 2010 - 20 March 2010 Ended ( will continue on ( duno yet) )

wad shoud i do??

Today morning she sms me,
and i tot she will say wat she Usually say de thing..
but not wor..she told me ,

below are the message:
(when i saw it my tears kept falling)
her: i feel like not suitable to paktor><><
not suitable to paktor lo..
me: meaning u like other boy == ?
her: No la, now de me is easy like other people.

part 2~

Her: i want wait until form 5 only paktor

then meaning is i need wait her for 3 years ??

But i have no idea what would happen after 3 years
well, 3 years later i will be 19 years old,
and is it possible to continue like that?
im not sure also, but as i know
many thing will change after 3 yrs..

So, now all i can do is just concentrate on my studies
and of course let her focus on her studies as well.
and then after i finish my education only decide what i should do.
i think that's the only way to let us settle down.
at least, wont so hurt and i hope the wait is worth.

Some of you might think , im so stupid
why you want wait for a girl until 3 years???
maybe she already got other boyfriend liao lurhh
you still there waiting like so lou..??

it's really hard for me to make a decision now.
cos, it's quite really complicated !

So let the time pass by and let's see what would happen.

And, I cant even hear the last " I LOVE YOU" from her.
that's really made me cried again.

Don't worry i'll be okay soon, just give me some time to settle down.

First product with jit yoong

This is my first song with jit yoong
bei pan, recorded on : 17 March 2010

Please comment and thanks.

today

this few days the weather was quite teruk..
and i was wondering if the world would be fair to everyone..
lalala...i really dont know wat 2 say....

hmm.. tis few days also busy about my homework..
those teacher before holiday give alot of homework to us..
den now i only want start to do..

and today i dont know why will so careless..
i go reload phone..but reload wrong number
just 1 word mistake..damn it
so damn...duno why ==


okayy..that's all
duno wan say wat le..
buaii ~

( i love you~)

paktor =]

16/3/2010

Today went to leisure mall with my baobei..
i around 12.30pm oni reach there
when reach i terus go speedy..
i keep walking around her,
but she dint notice me...
maybe is she gu yi de lurhh..xP

then oni she saw me....
but i duno why today she look so moody
and she is really moody...
den keep walking walkingggg.....

den we go cc, play for 1 hour ><
but after playing her mood is better le
den after finish terus go cinema
this time we watch
" ALICE IN WONDERLAND"
that movie not bad, i like xD
haha..then as usual we hold hands ^^
enjoy the whole movie
specially she's beside me xD

den after finish movie
we go walk walkkk again..
then go popular and walk walk also..
den we talk talkkk...bla blahh =]
den at last we did it again..(shhh xP secret)


and below are the pic we took today
i duno why i look so yam..
like not enough sleep..
and her eye are red on the other side..
but nvm..if she sleep well this few days
den her eye wont red anymore..

                                                      yea, that's us =)

                                                      cute boh my baobei??
                                                         xPP~~

                          Ok larh..nothing to write liaoo
                          quite happy today even just now abit moody
                           ( i lurb eu baobei,muack~)

lalala~

Hmm..hmm...

today mood very good..haha xD
sibehh happpy =)
okok...enough for all this crap

Erm...the SPM 2009 result is finally out..
my school 10am then start to let the ex-student to collect thier results.
well, i was inside the dewan to be " bat gong" xD
Haha..meanwhile, i saw different face expression from them..


But i'm quite unlucky also`
at school while i was talking to my friends
so i placed my hand on the door area..
then, suddenly the door langgar my hand..
my finger was injured..but not very serious larhh..

And oh ya~ the first term holiday is around the corner
but after the school holiday will be the exam..
and tomorrow is the Bm oral exam..
agrhhh...pengsan lurhhh~~

lalalalala~

ok larh...write until here sin xD
buaii buaii~~

               ( i lurb eu xP)

Modddyy~

Today i was so damn moody,
since yesterday until now!!!
i went to school and then i wish to kill ppl....
then after school, Stay back from BOMBA activity~
Around 4pm only go back home~~~
damn tireddd and i want ki siao jorrr

And!!! And i was wondering something the whole day
She treat me so cold today i dont know why
usually she will call me what she will usually call me..
but now...not anymore..just very COLD!!
so damn sad lurhhh...i really DONT KNOW WHY~
i am ur bf lerh...why treat me so cold jekk
who am i to you??

( baobei~~ i dun really mean to hurt you or treat you cold, i hope you can forgive me)

I love you!
Ok the end...
bye bye

sports day

Today is my school de sports day ~
wake up around 6am, but still feel sleepy =X
okay,then after wake up, then prepare go fren's house
coz i want follow him go, got 2 also follow..including me
then reached the stadium around 7am..
i was just wondering why our school need go bukit jalil
and not stadium bola sepak bdr tun razak leh??

ok whatever..then go in and get the food...
and then terus go find our place to sit..
then ... skippppp~~~~

The only thing i like is the cheerleader~
other than that..just sitting there and supporting my fren
who participate on the sports event..

Skipppppp~~~~~
Then go back by LRT and bus
and then reached home around 1.40pm ==
tired and sienx like hell ...= =


Okay that's all
buaii buaiii~~

                        ba0bei`
                  ( i lurb eu xP)

5/3 memories

oday finally is the day that im waiting for~

hmm..today i go leisure mall to meet up with her^^
plan to watch movie and paktoh~~
when meet her jor we both reli so paiseh
then before the movie start
we keep walking and walking around ~
then finally go old town eat thing
but not she eat, me eat xD
but tat time i dint feel very hungry
just abit hungry....haha

then after that, took some pichaa as well..^^
den lerh..see the time..oh time to go cinema jor..
that time 2.40pm..haha not too late yet
when go in ngam ngam started nia..xP
then while watching, she finally hold my hand
and that time i was so happy,
and dont even wish to let go her hands..^^

then after movie, it's still raining and then time still early..
so we go hang gai... walking around bla blaaa~~
and something that i wished finally came true^^
my first kiss finally gv to her jor~ xP
still not good enuf, but still okay..
very shy la that time xD

then i accompany her the whole time,
i just wish she could be happy when im together with her
and i hope she did, haha xD

then i walk home...haha ==

okok, enuf for all the talking,

let the pichha tells you all xP



ok i dun wan say so muchh

let the pichaa do the talking~

me and her ^^

but my eye duno why close ==

and look so tired that time

my eye really look so cacat><

hold ur hand forever wont let go^^

(got 1 more she dun let me upload xD)

ok that's all...buaii buaiii

i lurb eu xP

=]

today schooling as usual...
the most hate de thing is after skul..
still need stay back for kadet bomba activity..
keep on kawad....made my leg so pain ><
i hate it lurhhh......


den come bak..like wan die jor ==
haix..then i recieved a call from the computer shop
the person says that my desktop ok jor,
can go collect liao...so i go collect lurhh...
rm50~ gone! LOL!!


den,while sleeping, my fren call me
ANDREW!!!!!!!
then i suddenly wake up and see ==
then i know is him...
he ask me go jogging ..LOL!
so i go lurhh...but who knows
cant even jog,then just go cc
at first i said wan go home geh
but he keep push me go cc
say wan me help him update his facebook...
so then ...like that lurh...
after that, meet up wif few frenz
then tgt go pasar malam...
haha...that time i miss my baobei so muchh ><
then around 8pm oni reach home....==~


then after eat, i go open skype...
and this time im really so happy lurh..
because we finally can talk so much jor...
i can feel that our relation is now veyr close jor...
very very good....xD

my wish finally came true,
and oh ya..
still gt 2 more days den can go paktor and meet up wif her jor ^^
wah...now very very excited jor....XD
ok larh..that's all...buaii

( I lurb eu,muacks)

i missed her

today hor, my house suddenly 停电~~
then that time i ngam ngam wan go sleep jor geh..
i meant, evening time laa

but hor, just like that no electric jor
cham lurh..hot dou seii><
no aircond,no fan T_T
but luckily my hp battery is full
if not cant sms jor...
then while sms-ing wif her
i suddenly fall asleep jor..xD
maybe too tired gua~~


still got 3 more days...
wah~~ so excited nehh
my wishes finally came true...
hopefully really can sucess lurhh...
haha...waiting for that day

(haha,so happy can go watch movie wif eu xD)


ok larh...write until here
i lurb eu lurrrb eu xD